nothing to write.

i haven’t written in a few days.  i’ve been under the weather with some sinus junk. but it’s kept me in a pattern of thinking about what things i find contentment and satisfaction in and through. i haven’t run in a few days and it’s been such beautiful weather. 

last week i grabbed a book off of the shelf that had been gathering dust for a few years; it’s entitled The Rare Jewel of Christian Contentment. the idea is simple enough: Christians ought to find complete satisfaction in God alone. yet as simple as the idea is, it’s practice is no easy thing.

in the last week i have had to deal with not finding satisfaction in friends and family. i’ve also taken a more level approach at dealing with being sick and actually being sick instead of going full-bore as is my normal approach to things.

i feel as if i’ve nothing profound to say at the moment; i just want to write. this morning i awoke at 5:00 without the aid of an alarm. i got up and put the coffee on and nestled in with the Good Book. i read through a number of passages, some more familiar than others, and wasn’t struck by any great or new revelation, but there was a certain profundity to the enjoyment of the experience. i had my coffee and some lamplight and some mozart and after about an hour or so i also had the first notes of the morning’s birdsongs. and it seemed to fit with one of the comments made in The Rare Jewel, that one should seek to have his desires align with his circumstances.

the idea is that a poor man ought not stake his contentment on the prospect of eventual riches, but rather should stake his contentment in his current estate. it’s a simple idea: be happy where you’re at and do not be unhappy because of where you are not.

this morning i was by the window. and i was happy to be there with nothing but contentment to enjoy. there is a trap though; do not be merely content with the circumstances through the means of positive thinking or any other self-help mantra. rather, be content in the fact that a sovereign and loving Father has ordained that you be in such a circumstance as you are and be pleased with the truth that he knows how to order things perfectly. as Mueller founded his life, so should we, trusting that the Father withholds no good thing from his children as they walk uprightly in Christ.

perhaps i did have something to write about.

maybe i’ll wake at 5:00 again tomorrow and see what happens...